"I guess I have a lot of problems, so many that I don't have time to go into them all in detail. Suffice it to say I'm anal, obsessive, vain, quick to temper, overly introspective, lazy, judgmental, insecure, and self-righteous. Probably the most annoying thing about me is that I'm hugely opinionated. But I kind of make up for that by always being right."

Monday, August 07, 2006

Day 63: Retaking Breakfast (part two)

Another reason I'm so focused on the weight loss aspect of this project is that it gives me the feeling that I'm not only doing something, but that I'm doing something really hard. Which means that -- at least in this one particular area -- I'm in control of my life. Which is important because up until two months ago I felt completely out of control.

I'm very proud of the fact that I've lost 30 pounds. And in a way, doing so has made me believe in myself again. It's made me believe that I can get out of my head, acquire grace, control my anger, learn to love pseudo-intellectual psychology junkies who leave long-winded passive-aggressive comments on my blog, and even -- dare I say it -- become happy.

The hardest part of my new "diet" was giving up cereal in the morning. For as long as I can remember I've started every day with a giant (3 cup) bowl of raisin bran with a sliced-up banana in it. Pour 2 cups of milk over that and you're talking almost 1000 calories, which is half the calories I'm now allowed for an entire day. So I started eating eggs for breakfast. Eggs! And for two months woke up every morning actually kind of dreading my first meal of the day. It wasn't that I hated eggs; it was just that they weren't raisin bran.

Anyway, after intense lobbying with my nutritionist, and agreeing to cut back to two and-a-half cups, eliminate the banana, and use less milk (and because she felt that I was losing too much weight too quickly) I got my raisin bran back.

Oh, glorious day! Oh, golden flakes of love! Oh, raisin bran!