"I guess I have a lot of problems, so many that I don't have time to go into them all in detail. Suffice it to say I'm anal, obsessive, vain, quick to temper, overly introspective, lazy, judgmental, insecure, and self-righteous. Probably the most annoying thing about me is that I'm hugely opinionated. But I kind of make up for that by always being right."

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Day 52: Upswing

I've hired some professionals to clean my house. Three people worked for three hours yesterday and didn't even finish half of the place. It's that dirty. It's such a good feeling to know that every inch of your living space is really clean -- no dirt, no grime, no cobwebs, no dust, no vermin droppings, nothin'. It gives you that "fresh start" feeling. I know it sounds corny but I almost feel as though they're wiping my emotional slate clean as well.

I've been feeling very upbeat lately. A lot of it has to do with this internet TV show my friend Tom Scheuber and I are working on. It's called "Rick Reynolds Gets Happy." We finished the first one, which runs about seven minutes, and I think it looks pretty good. As soon as we get a few in the can we'll start posting them here on this site. We'll do one a week and see how it goes. I'm kind of excited about it.

I also caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror today and for the first time in three years didn't think I looked half bad. Nothing women would swoon over, mind you, but nothing to cause them to gag if I paid them a little attention, either.

I guess you could say I'm cautiously optimistic. I'm on the upswing, but I've seen myself plunge back down into depression too many times to get all that excited.