"I guess I have a lot of problems, so many that I don't have time to go into them all in detail. Suffice it to say I'm anal, obsessive, vain, quick to temper, overly introspective, lazy, judgmental, insecure, and self-righteous. Probably the most annoying thing about me is that I'm hugely opinionated. But I kind of make up for that by always being right."

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Day 44: Stuff

Often, when I can't cope with the everyday trials and tribulations of life, I turn to my stuff. Which probably explains why I have so much of it. I have tons of cool old paperback books, old comic books, old Mad magazines and teen magazines, old 45 rpm records, old radios, old toys, old sheet music, old Big Little books, old board games, old cocktail shakers, old movie posters, old guitars -- the list goes on and on. It's to the point, really, that my house looks like a museum of popular culture.

I'm also into DVDs, especially the classics and obscure stuff from the 40s and 50's. These are generally the ones with really cool covers. During my recent five day depression I bought over 400 DVDs. I know that probably sounds a little incredible, but it's true. I spent nearly 16 hours a day on Amazon, searching for bargains. Many of the movies I bought I'd never even heard of before, but they just sounded too interesting to pass up. And I can't tell you how much fun it was to discover a little gem that I'd been looking for and have it be on sale!

I actually just got through watching one of my favorite finds, "The Beginning Of The End," -- a campy 50s science fiction movie starring Peter Graves and a bunch of giant grasshoppers. What's weird is that I knew I'd probably only watch it this one time, but I still had to own it. It's part of the collector's mentality.

In the middle of this buying frenzy, my 15-year-old son observed what I was doing and called my behavior "a sickness." Most people, I'm sure, would agree with him. There are a lot better things I could have done with my time and money. On the other hand, I prefer thinking that my little shopping spree helped me get through a very rough patch without resorting to hurting myself or anybody else.

And, of course, I now have even more cool stuff.