"I guess I have a lot of problems, so many that I don't have time to go into them all in detail. Suffice it to say I'm anal, obsessive, vain, quick to temper, overly introspective, lazy, judgmental, insecure, and self-righteous. Probably the most annoying thing about me is that I'm hugely opinionated. But I kind of make up for that by always being right."


Friday, June 09, 2006

Day Four: The Montage Begins

I had to go to a health food store to pick up some supplements for my new diet, and was reminded of how much I hate health food stores, and especially the people who shop there. Ironically, many of them look anything but healthy, and most have that self-righteous, spiritual glow that makes you want to smack 'em. Also, they all look oddly self-satisfied, as if shopping at a non-organic, processed-sugar supermarket were only for inbred trailer-park hicks (like me).

I have to keep a food diary now, and it's a complete drag. I'm supposed to stay under 2,500 calories, but 8 ounces of strawberry yogurt around 10:00 pm last night pushed me over my limit. Also, I'm hungry all day long now, even after finishing a meal. I can see why some people just say "Fuck it," and let themselves go.

Like many people I have trouble making it through what I call the "montages of life" -- those days, months, and sometimes even years when you're involved in an ongoing process that you hope will some day lead to a certain desired outcome. The problem is that you're so focused on the future that the present seems tedious and neverending.

Much like this blog.